Dear Patrick

How I miss you. We went past the funeral home that handled your arrangements beautifully and all I could do is cry...yes,i cried on the bus. I was a bit embarassed,but all those people on the bus have no clue what we have gone through. I am blessed to have met so many people through your passing....women i never would have met otherwise. These women have helped me through the tough times,listened to me vent,cry,or just say my random thoughts. They've sent me gifts and made beautiful pictures in your memory....and i am extremeley grateful to have met them..though I wish it would have been under diffrent circumstances. I am hoping to post your birth story soon..no matter if it is short or not,but the 4 days you were with me have made the biggest impact on my life. as a matter of fact,i think i will post your birth story tomorrow. I love you baby,sleep tight,and send angel kisses to me and daddy tonight.
love
mommy